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Hey Girl! I’ve been out & about knocking things off my bucket list (which I hope you’re doing too!) and doing my therapy homework which is to date (sigh)!
I created the bucket list to help me out with creating memorable experiences for myself. I also wanted to add some new things that I never tried before to maybe stumble upon a new hobby, a new friend or you know where I’m going here.
In the midst of that I realized I suck at things and it has become a good lesson on freedom (my word for the year) & grace. But yea, I suck…
On my bucket list I said I wanted to try tennis or golf or both. I’ve never done any of those sports seriously but I wanted to give a try plus these are two social hobbies where I could possibly expand my network.
Sometimes I feel a bit silly but then I realize part of that is just my personality! LMAO
Girl I took a tennis cardio class one Saturday and got my butt handed to me! Y’all I was so bad, the instructor offered me private lessons! LMAO At the end of the day I am proud of myself because I didn’t take myself too seriously & kind of even relished in the fact that I was the suckiest person in the class.
Before then I couldn’t really remember the last time I sucked at something. It felt good in a weird way and as I reflect on that experience I realized how many things I didn’t give myself the opportunity to suck at. I have been such a high achiever up until this point, y’all I remember getting silent lunch in middle school for the first time EVER and it made me sick to my stomach. I called my Mom to pick me up I was so sick! LMAO
2 things come top of mind that are works in progress currently; finances and dating. Finances, as I learn new things about it coupled with figuring out my goals in this area, I have been reminding myself I’m still learning. There are things I still don’t know and even when I eventually learn it doesn’t mean I’ll be great at it. Reminding myself, it’s okay and we can keep trying has been a daily practice.
Continuing to learn myself in dating is an interesting thing. I took years off from dating in my early 20s which means I still have so much to learn as I approach 30. Sometimes I feel a bit silly but then I realize part of that is just my personality! LMAO The other part I’m learning through therapy are my triggers and ways to cope. Being knowledgable of things doesn’t mean I won’t suck at it every now and again. My main growth point is to be compassionate when I come short.
This lesson oddly has led me to more freedom. Freedom to know and understand that I can f*ck up sometimes but imma be good. Growing up there was so much pressure to get it right cause it might’ve cost money or time our parents didn’t have. Especially as a black girl the pressure is crazy. (need I say more…) So it leads to a restrictive life moving into adulthood. This is the most free I’ve ever felt and I’m so grateful for this lesson that I get to learn now & share it with y’all!
So tell me, what’s the last thing you sucked at? If nothing, I dare you try it!
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